Our Trip to Gymboree

Punky and I spend Saturdays together. She and I usually leave the house in the afternoon and give her Mama time to sleep in and take a break. Mama stays home with Punky while I go to work because her Bipolar disorder doesn’t allow her to work right now. It makes for a great financial situation that we don’t have to employ daycare, however, it makes me nervous about Punky’s socialization.

She will be a year old in just a few short weeks. She doesn’t really get to be around other kids her age. I have the car at work all day, of course, even if I didn’t, my partner also suffers from agoraphobia and other things that limit her ability to leave the house alone.

I also don’t really have mommy friends. I don’t really have many friends in person at all. We pretty much stay to ourselves. I also have a slight problem with going places by myself in public situations where there may or may not be people I don’t know.

So, all in all, the kid has the unfortunate pleasure of being home bound most of the time.

When I saw the opportunity to attend a free Gymboree session, I thought I might as well get over my fear of strangers and take Punky out to get some socialization. This is a huge change for me since becoming a mother. I honestly have to make myself get out and mingle with other people.

So, we arrived at Gymboree, I didn’t talk myself out of it or reschedule it like I normally would have done with an outing like this. And, all in all we had a nice time.

The instructor explained that each week there would be a new theme. The theme this week was ramps and rhymes. So, we were teaching the kids to climb up ramps and slide down slides. There were all sorts of mats and tumbling things for the kids to crawl on and play on. There were colorful tunnels, that Punky chose not to even attempt. Lots of singing and exercise. This mommy was worn out by the end of the day.

We live as a fairly lower, middle class family in a pretty affluent town. Everything is pretty overpriced, I am intimidated by the moms that I see at the park in their SUVs and stylish clothes. Though I am sure I am just paranoid, I also feel like they look at me funny. So stepping foot into this place was something I sorely did not want to do on a personal level.


However, for Punky, it was something I was willing to overcome. Also, we don’t have many friends, mommy or otherwise, that we associate with outside of family. So, I wasn’t sure how the atmosphere was going to be with a two mommy household.

After the class, I realized that most of the parents were as new as me, so we were all keeping to ourselves. I also realized that Punky was having fun, though she was apprehensive and I knew that I had to make the numbers work to allow her to go back again.

I spoke with the instructor and got the scoop on the classes and I was told that I could enroll in the Saturday classes and the 1 Saturday a month that I had to work, I could make it up on that Monday. So, it was a great set up for a working mom. Not to mention that they have an open gym play on Sundays, so I thought that might also be awesome.


It’s definitely worth the money. Punky and I will get some bonding time in an environment where she can play with other kids and learn things. I think the cost is not as bad as I thought, because at first I thought it was a once a month class for $65, but its really once a week class, which is great.

The instructor also told me they are having a special for $20 off the first three months and giving out 4 free class passes, so we could attend 2 classes a week if we wanted to. I think it’s quite a deal and I think we will do it.

Basically, I enjoyed taking Punky to Gymboree and I am glad that we can expose her to other kids her age and bring her out of her shell the more she goes.

Letter To Peyton – 4 months old

4 ½ months old

Dear Peyton,

I have decided to write you a letter every so often and if I can get my act together, give them to you when you graduate. I doubt that I will actually follow through with this plan, but I will do my best. 18 years is a long time, though. And Mommy is a little flighty, your Mama will be sure to point that out.

I want you to know that I love you more than anything in the world. You are the one person that I have always wanted in my life. I wished for you for so many years and against all odds, you are finally here. The last four months have been so very hard, but only because I have never been a mommy before. I keep telling myself that it’s not because I don’t like being your mommy, it’s because I am not used to it.

I actually love being your mommy. I am so thankful to have you in my life. I will never be able to find the words to say thank you to the many people who helped make you possible. I have dreamed of you for more years that I can count in my life. I have watched my friends and family have babies and wish so much that I had my own.

I now have you.

Of all the things I have done in my life, having you has been the hardest and the most rewarding thing I have ever done. Most likely the hardest thing I will ever do in my life. I promise to always love you, no matter what. I promise to give you the support you need when you grow up. I promise to be proud of you in all you want to do.

Its not everyday that people get to experience miracles. I am so glad that I am one of those people who have a miracle in my life. I will never take for granted the love that I hold for you and the overwhelming feeling I have when I look into your eyes.

I love to hear your laugh and your fingers wrapped around mine is just the best feeling in the world. I am looking forward to watching you grow and being the best Mommy to you that I know how to be. However, I hope that you will be patient with me. I am new to this.

No Mommy is perfect and no daughter comes with a handbook, but together, I believe we can make it through anything.

I will love you to the moon and back.
Hugs and Kisses,


Raising Money for Hi-5

If you don’t know what Hi-5 is, I am here to tell you that its the best organization I have seen out there, spreading pure love. The people behind the movement are trying to reach high fives for love all around the world. You can check out their Facebook Group for more details.

TEAM Hi-5 is a group promoting NO Race, NO Religion, NO Creed, NO Orientation, NO Gender and NO Hate… JUST US! Promote love and tolerance by posting your HI-5 picture! We are a NON-PROFIT group, out to help the Charities and raise awareness.

However, I am raising money for the cause. As a lesbian mommy, I believe that pure love is all that the world needs. Less hate, more love.

  I would like to ask you to donate whatever you can to the cause. I will be keeping this button active until the end of the month of July. All proceeds for donations will go to Jeffy Schudel to further his cause as he sees fit. I would love to raise money to help him out. The cause is dear to my heart and I am sure, given the almost 5,000 members of the group right now, its dear to other people’s hearts as well!

Let’s Spread the Word and Spread the Love.