And these are the Days of Our Lives…..

I feel like we are constantly in some wackadoodle damn soap opera. The roller coaster of our life just never had a moment to slow down and stop. There are never any breaks along the way, it’s just UP and DOWN. UP and DOWN.

Jeez, life, throw me a damn bone.

I’m super frustrated right now because Kim and I got Punky all dressed up and paraded her around the court house in Kansas to get our application for a marriage license. Literally, just last week, this was a done deal and we found out about it on Wednesday. We were excited, we were so relieved. It wasn’t Missouri, but just the few days prior, Missouri did rule that they would recognize gay marriages performed legally in states that do allow that sort of thing.

So, why not, we said?

We only live 30 minutes away from the court house doing it and we could go up there before I went to work the very next day. So, Thursday, we got ready, we all three got up super early. This was a momentous occasion and one we called all our parents about and pumped up our Facebook friends and family with this adorable video from Punky!

It was pouring down rain when we got in the car, by the time we got on the highway, I couldn’t even really see the cars in front of us. The rain was sheets of water, buckets being dumped on our car. Kim looked at me and said, “You must really want to do this.” And if anyone knows me, I don’t drive in the best conditions, let alone these types of conditions, unless I want to get somewhere. I held it together and kept my cool.

Punky got to press the walk button on the crosswalk and go through the metal detector, all while charming the pants off anybody we passed with her ridiculously adorable pea coat and umbrella.

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We finally found our way to the marriage license window and got the application; after swearing to god that our statements were all true. We got the application and they hadn’t even had time to change the pronouns on the application yet, it’s that new. So we had to cross out groom and we had to change he to she. Normally, this kind of thing might bug me, but not at that moment. I didn’t care. I just wanted to do it right.

11 years we have waited. 11 years we have been patiently watching and silently hoping that we will be married in our own state, or at least close. (Kansas is literally right around the corner from us!)  Who cares if the forms are updated. That time will come. I just wanted it to be right.

We signed some stuff, took our application and went home to wait the three day waiting period for Kansas marriage licenses.

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We were going to make a trip back there on Tuesday. We were going to get married and get our marriage license on Tuesday. The long wait for marriage (and tax benefits and rights and equality) was finally over.

Until tonight.

When we read that the Kansas State Attorney General petitioned a block on all gay marriage licenses. There will be a hearing. Sometime in November. And yes, I know – we will get married eventually. With the way the momentum of gay marriage is sweeping the country – it’s going to happen.

But.

It won’t be Tuesday.

And we are all pretty bummed about it.

SAD

And in other news, we are going to visit my family tomorrow – so that will likely brighten my spirits a bit.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Family Visit and Letter to Peyton

Dear Peyton,


Mommy doesn’t want you to be one. I can’t imagine that you are already old enough to drink from a sippy, to walk from couch to chair. I can’t begin to believe that you are waving and SAYING “bye”. I can’t get enough of you little baby laugh. You are never going to be a big kid to me. You will always be Mommy’s tiny, precious, beautiful miracle. My very heartbeat.

In just a few short weeks, you will be ONE. I can’t believe it. I refuse to believe it. Pretty soon we will be hearing you count to ten and ask why the sky is blue. I am not ready for that. I don’t want my baby to grow up! Where did the time go? Where has the last year gone? I have no idea. You are growing up to be so smart and so funny. You are made with such a unique and beautiful personality. 

In less than 5 weeks, you will have your birthday. You will be ONE. I want some more cuddles before you get too big. I want some more smoochies before you are too embarrassed. I want some more bath pictures before its too weird to be taking them. I want to put you in just a few more footed pajamas before they don’t make your size anymore.

You will always be Mommy’s little girl. I promise. It matters not how old you are. You will always be a baby to me.

Love, 

Mommy ❤
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So we spent the weekend with my family. My family lives 2 and half hours away, which means we always have to prepare for riding in the car with the baby. In her whole ALMOST ONE year of life, Peyton has not ever really slept in the car. So, we were concerned that this would be an issue. So, I started the day by headed to WIC and they pricked her little finger for iron. She was spot on. Then we went to Mama’s doctor’s appointment with her. After that, it was pretty much nap time. This means, hopefully a sleeping kid on the way to my parents’ house. Sure enough, we headed towards our destination and shortly after we got going, she fell asleep.
Once we got there, we headed to my dad’s house first. She didn’t really warm up to my dad right away. Which is pretty normal. She’s used to quiet and calm. My dad is neither of these things. So, she was a little shy around him. Every time he looked at her, she cried. When we put her on his lap, she cried. So he lured her with an oatmeal cream pie. It worked for a few minutes.
It worked pretty well for a few minutes. Basically any food that he offered her, she would take, but tickling? Nope. Playing? Absolutely not. However, when my youngest brother came in the house, she took to him with no problems at all!
This is probably my favorite picture from the weekend. SO sweet! Anyway, we hung out at my dad’s house for a while and then we headed to my mom’s house where we were staying the night. After a really long night of sick sister being rushed to the hospital, screaming nephew and no sleep, the next day was full of bed head and cats.
We spent the afternoon there and then headed back to my dad’s house for the rest of the day. We had a nice ham and mashed potato dinner. It was pretty awesome. While we waited for dinner, Peyton and their pitbull Petey looked out the window and pondered the cold outside.

I love these pictures. Also, we discovered something else. Peyton started to recognize when the camera was on her. She would hear the camera come on and she would turn her head, wrinkle her nose and smile. It was the most adorable thing I have ever seen. She is usually very hard to get to smile for the camera. For the last 10 months, its like pulling teeth to get her to smile for the camera. So, since then every time the camera is pointed in her direction, she smiles like this:

She also made up with her grandpa. It is the most adorable thing to watch. Ignore all the talk in the background, the people in the house didn’t know I was video taping the whole tickle session.
After dinner, we went back to my mom’s again to stay the night. We had a much quieter night but still an early morning. Peyton’s sleep schedule was off on this trip. However, she did eat Lucky Charms for the first time and her Aunt J gave her the first of many temporary tattoos.

 
That afternoon, she played with the blocks that Grandma gave her for Christmas. She was quite happy to watch Grandma stack the blocks so she could kick them over!
She had a little chicken nuggets for lunch, in a high chair she’s not used to. She is used to a full tray, so this was an interesting experience for us. She thought for sure she needed to stand up in the chair.
After some lunch she helped Grandma play cards. Grandma won in the end. Of course she did! With this lucky charm on her lap, who wouldn’t win?!

Before we left my mom’s house, she had a nice little wrestling match with her Cousin M. Her cousin is the first grandbaby of the family and she’s 5, just started Kindergarten. She’s the only girl with 2 younger brothers, so M is always thrilled to have a little girl time.
Of course, when we left my mom’s house, both my mom and sister cried. They always do when we leave. We went to my brother’s house and hung out with him and his wife. We had not been to their house before and it was pretty neat to just hang out and watch The Lorax. We didn’t get to finish it, but Kim and I have decided we will see if its on Netflix, because what we saw of it, was pretty cute.
It’s so cold outside and the air is so dry. It doesn’t help that she has the craziest hair on the planet anyway, so when I took her little hat off, her hair looked like this:
She loves her Uncle C. He’s pretty cool and he likes to dance with her and sing crazy songs to her. Here, they were hanging out on the couch reading a comic book. I just know he’s going to make an awesome daddy someday.

We stayed the night at my brother’s house and then came home today. Kim is sleeping and I am blogging. Peyton is playing with all her toys that are not being shared by her cousins. I have two more days before I have to be back at work and I plan on spending that time relaxing and watching TV, playing Ruzzle on Facebook (Thanks, C and H) and playing with my baby girl. 
She’s going to be one soon, you know. I got to get in all the cuddles and playtime I can!
Until next time, 
Take Care ❤
Rachael

Dealing with Sad News for our Family

I love that no matter the mood of the room, the emotions of other people – Peyton makes everyone smile. She calms me and makes me feel lighter when the world feels like its on our shoulders. Two days ago, we found out that Kim’s grandmother is failing in health. She has been moved to Hospice and the family is waiting for her to pass away.

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I have known this woman for 10 years. She has been the rock of Kim’s family their entire lives and I feel as though I have had her in my life since day 1. She is a special person. A person of excellent love and compassion for others. She has lived a long life of love and laughter, sorrows and sadness. The one thing I will always remember and love about her, is the day she took me in her arms that very first day she accepted me into the family.

She didn’t have to accept me. I am not blood and I am not married to Kim. She didn’t have to hug me and welcome me with open arms. When we are in a relationship that some families don’t approve of, that some families are upset about, it can be complicated when family is involved. She didn’t make it complicated.

Kim’s grandmother was the glue that held this family together. A family that I am proud of be a part of. My extended family when my own family is not able to be here with me. I love each and every one of them and I am so thankful to have them in my life. Each of them, her grandmother included has accepted me and our daughter Peyton as family no matter how much blood is not shared between us. The bonds will always be there.

Peyton meeting great-grandma for the first time.

I sit here by the phone, waiting for the call. A few hours of calm and then the flood of tears as I remember that we are going to be losing someone very shortly. Our time with her is incredibly short and yet the memories are long-lasting.

I’m so glad to have Peyton with me right now, because when I am sad and upset, I can pull her up in my arms and hug her tight. Her babbles and her kisses can make me smile again. It saddens me that she won’t get to know her great-grandmother in the way I do. However, I will promise to teach our daughter to love as her great-grandmother loved. Unconditionally and with judgement.

Here’s a goodbye and a goodnight, Benita Gilio. I love you. I cherish our time together. You are a special kind of person and I hope you find your peace sooner rather than later, because I can’t bear to see you going through this right now.

Take Care ❤
Rachael

Its Been 7 months

Is it crazy that I am still astonished that we have a child? I mean, I get it. I planned for her, I carried her for nine months and she has been moving and shaking outside my belly for 7 months. I still can’t believe it. I still can’t fathom the fact that we have a child.

I find it hard to wrap my mind around the overwhelming sense of joy and love I have for Peyton. There is more in her eyes that melt my heart than anything ever has in my life. I never thought I could love someone as much as I love our daughter.
We were truly blessed. Absolutely blessed. I am not a religious person, so I am not quite sure how we were blessed, but its the only word I can think of to try and explain how I feel. Lucky, might be another way. Rewarded. For what, I am not sure. I can’t imagine what great deed I did in my life to deserve such a treasure. 
She has changed so much in the last 7 months. Her pictures really show how much she has changed. She started out as a tiny little blob of baby and she has grown into a ball of energy.
In the last 31 weeks, she has started crawling. She pulls herself up on things. She is never still for more than a few moments. She’s a giant. She is wearing 6-9 month sleepers and 12 month shirts and pants. She wears a size 2 shoe. She’s a TV junkie, which I suppose may not be good for her, but she’s a baby and she watches PBS Kids (To hell with you Mitt Romney, that’s a whole different topic). Our kid is smart. She is beautiful. She has personality.
She dances and she gives me wet. slobbery kisses and I love every minute of it. She eat “Happy Puffs” and really enjoys the Blueberry Sweet Potato and the Spinach Apple. We started giving her diced carrots and baby yogurt. Just this evening, she had a mixture of rice cereal and Plum Banana baby food. She ate the entire concoction. She doesn’t play around when it comes to her food.


All mothers should be real and make sure to mention that motherhood is a thankless job. Really, there are moments that I just don’t want to wrestle with her when I get home. I will be honest. But, then I look at her little smile and I just have to. I don’t have a choice. The little smile, full of four tiny teeth, she just gets me every time. No matter how tired I may be, she lights up my world.
She can smack me with her jerky little arm movements. She can pull my hair and poke me in the eye and I just don’t care. I am so thankful to have her in my life.
She truly is a miniature me, but she is so much more than that! To Kim and I both, she is the miracle that we have been given. She is the gift that we can share the rest of our lives. The bond that we will never break. 
I feel like now, when I had truly given up hope of having a child, I am finally fulfilled. She has completed me. I believe she has completed us. Our family is finally whole and after 7 months, I still can’t believe it.
Take Care
❤ Rachael

Peyton’s Half Birthday – 6 months old.

Peyton is 6 months old today. She has giving me a run for my money already. She’s been teething and quite sickly this morning. Screaming since 4 AM and not consolable at all. So, my idea of capturing yet another day of Peyton has been riddled with sad, sickly kiddo pictures. However, we will go on and do 24 hours of my newly 6 month old baby girl. Happy half birthday, Punky Monster. Mommy loves you even when you are sick and cranky.

11:20 PM: Mommy couldn’t make it until Midnight. So sleepy.
So, we took one last picture before the big HALF BIRTHDAY! This is the last moment captured before she turned 6 months old.

She fell asleep pretty early and in the last few days, she has been fighting us at bedtime. She also seems to think that its time to get up at 4AM. We will have to work on that.

1:42 AM: Peyton is officially 6 months old. Mommy got up to go to the bathroom and snapped this shot really quickly. The flash is so bright, I am surprised she didn’t wake up!

3:25 AM: Mama Kim came to bed around this time, so Mommy thought she might snap another picture. Amazed that Peyton hadn’t woken up yet. Isn’t she just the most precious sleeping 6 month old baby cakes? Maybe this will be the night she sleeps through the night?

3:27 AM: No such luck. Instead, she woke up and started squealing. This is Mama’s favorite time of day though. Half asleep babies are good for cuddling and petting.

4:19AM Thru 5:20AM: Peyton finished her bottle and we tried to put her back to sleep. She was not having any of that. Instead, Mama took her out in the living room to see if she could wear her out. This picture is actually when Mama gave up and crashed and Mommy got up and took her into the living room instead. Such a tired baby, yet … she will not go to sleep.

 

 5:42 AM: She started to get sweaty and feverish. She just wouldn’t stop screaming. I took her temperature and it was not abnormal. I gave her some Tylonol.

5:43 AM: When that didn’t work, I got out the Hyland’s Teething tablets. They are tiny little white tablets that you put on her tongue and they dissolve instantly. Her Aunt Brittany says they taste like the candy stix in FunDip. I don’t really know, I didn’t try them to confirm her story.

5:44 AM: When that didn’t work, but she was chewing on my fingers, I gave her some Baby Orajel, Nighttime and handed her a teething ring. This worked for a tiny moment. She was at least a little less banshee like. I swear sometimes, with the shrieks that come out of her mouth, I wonder if I did in fact give birth to a baby Banshee Queen.

5:55 AM: I took her back to the bedroom and rocked her a bit. She did finally fall asleep. I laid her in bed and headed back to the living room. By this time, I was awake. Ready to catch up on my TV shows.

6:34 AM: It didn’t last very long. About 30 minutes later, Peyton started screaming again. I went and got her out of her bed again. I tried to feed her, but there was no consoling her. This was shaping up to be the worst first Half Birthday Ever, and we were only 6 hours into it.

7:01 AM: Peyton started to calm down a bit and yawn around 7AM. I was hoping I could get her to go sleep then. So, off to the bedroom we went again, to try and put her back to sleep.

7:24 AM: It took 20 minutes of singing, humming, rocking, and butt patting to finally get her to go to sleep. She burped a lot and hopefully that was her main problem. She stopped squealing and shrieking and fell asleep. I finally got her to lay in her bed and covered her tiny feet.

Mommy went back to the living room, because of course, still not tired.

10:16 AM: Just as I was thinking I might go back to bed, I laid my head on my pillow and a tiny shriek came from the baby’s bed. I snapped this shot before I turned on her mobile. The mobile distracted her long enough to give me a tiny … very tiny cat nap.

10:35 AM: Peyton was smiling and laughing by the time she got up from her very long sleep. That made me feel better too. Her tears were dried when I turned on her cartoons and gave her a nice warm bottle.

 11:20 AM: Sigh. She started to get feverish again and she smelled like dirty babies smell. Sweat, puke, and drool. Anyone without babies, I can’t even explain it to you. So, I put her on the cool bathroom floor while I ran her bath water. FYI: She started on her belly and by the time I turned around, she was on her back.

11:24 AM: The newest game that Peyton likes to play is swimming in the bath tub. She likes to pull the drain level down, by splashing her way from the back of the tub to the front and then hanging on it. However, in this picture, I was in the middle of washing her hair when she thought this might be a good time to start the game.

11:28 AM: Right after her bath, we spent some time with her friend in the mirror. That baby always cheers her up!

11:32 AM: Mommy got her dressed and turned on the cartoons again. She decided it might be a better vantage point if she propped herself up on the pillow and watched from there. This is how serious she is about The Cat and the Hat Knows A lot About That.

12:04 PM: Hanging out after her bath, drinking a bottle and rocking some flower pants.

12:16 PM: Mama woke up and Peyton gave her a nice pet on her hand to say Good Morning!

12:22 PM: Peyton is working on a poop in this picture. I know, it doesn’t look like it by that innocent face. However, Mommy also learned not to let her sit in her saucer and try to poop, it causes poop all the way up her back.

2:44 PM: Shortly after being changed, Peyton fell asleep again. She had a nice little nap, perhaps to sleep off the long, trying morning. I had gone into the bedroom to lay down, myself and snapped this fast little picture of her.

3:59 PM: We both woke up and had to take a minute to wake up. Some people look cuter than their Mommy when she wakes up. It could be because she’s a professional sleeper!

4:10 PM: Soon, she was back to herself. The earlier bout of sickness has past and she was in her playpen, sucking on her toes! So basically … back to normal.

 4:35 PM: Having a moment with Mama. Kisses were definitely involved. Peyton has started to give kisses, with the normal open mouth baby lips. Full of slobber and yet they are still the sweetest kisses ever.

4:38 PM: This is what Peyton takes pictures of when she gets a hold of Mommy’s camera and crawls on her.

4:49 PM: Mama gave her a pretzel stick. It was mostly something to suck on and make into a slobbery mess! All in good fun, who cares, its her half birthday.

5:05 PM: When left to her own devices on the floor, Peyton has been known to do some silly things. In this case, she is trying to figure out how to get milk out of the bottom of her bottle. I don’t think she ever figured that out and later she just turned it around to drink it correctly.

5:11 PM: She moved to pushing over her BUMBO and rolling it all over the floor.

5:20 PM: When she got bored of that, she decided it was try to crawl again. She didn’t quite get there, but she did flop onto her face a few times. Which in itself is adorable to watch.

Mommy and Aunt Brittany left for Walmart around 6:00PM, in search of a cake and party supplies. By the time they got home, Peyton was taking YET ANOTHER nap.

9:00 PM:  Peyton woke up from her nap and we slapped on a sticker “Half Birthday Girl”. She was still so sleepy that she had lines on her face.

Disclaimer: Peyton is usually not up this late. We don’t keep her up this late. Unfortunately, today she was completely off her sleep schedule for unknown reasons.

9:01 PM: Mommy altered a tiny balloon we got at Hyvee. Of course, I put the 1/2 in the wrong spot, but whatever. Its still awesome!

9:05 PM: Mommy put some candles in a tiny SUGAR FREE CAKE. Really, the cake was more for the mess factor than for eating. Good thing I took a picture before she smashed it.

9:06 PM: Aunt Brittany took a picture of Peyton and her mommies. The only thing I can see in this picture, however, is that fact that Peyton is trying to move my arm so she can get to the cake.

I promise, she had very little cake in her mouth.

9:07 PM: Arms up! Last thing we want is burned fingers on our half birthday! We sang “Happy Half Birthday” and her mommies helped her blow out the candles. She just kept looking at us like we were nuts.

We probably are. In the words of my sister, Brittany. “Not many people celebrate half birthdays. In fact, you may be the only crazy.”

9:11 PM: And then the mayhem started. She got a little taste of the whipped icing, but she never really stuck her fingers in the cake part. She really just smeared it around on the tray of her highchair.

9:14 PM: Celebration was over pretty quickly. Now its bath time. The ‘not icing’ icing was kind of floaty, so it made washing up crazy hard. I washed her up as best I could, but she smelled like she was wearing Cupcake Perfume.

9:22 PM: Winding down the day with duck pants and some wiggles on the floor. All clean!

9:54 PM: Rolling around in the playpen, playing with her penguin. We just decided to let her wind down on her own tonight. Its her Half birthday! She’s allowed.

10:27 PM: Mama put her sticker on her butt and let her scoot all over the floor.

11:11 PM: In the midst of all that rolling and scooting (wearing her out), she came across the Mickey Mouse that my dad gave her. She just learned how to push the buttons to make him sing to her. She sucked on his thumb at one point. Apparently, his plushy thumb tastes better than her own thumb.

11:17 PM: Mama joined her on the floor and they played the “Kisses” Game. She’s giving baby kisses right now, like little babies do. Open mouth and giggles.

11:18 PM: Peyton started to get sleepy here and her head got heavy. She smacked it on the floor and was not so happy about it. She made sure we were all aware of her upset.

11:33 PM: One last bottle before bed.

11:42 PM: And after a long winded Half Birthday, my baby Peyton has concluded her first day as a 6 month old!

Guilty of Having a Baby

So, I had a different post in mind for today, but I have a friend on Facebook – whose post on her own blog, really touched my heart this morning.

She is a woman, married to a man. She wants a baby. I actually have never met her in person, but we have been friends through online sources for years. She has been having trouble conceiving a baby and every time I see her posts on Facebook, another failed attempt. It breaks my heart for her.

Frankly, I always knew there were people out there having trouble conceiving. But, I never really thought of just how lucky we were. Men and women were made to create babies. It shouldn’t be so hard for them. Not to mention that I remember having the feeling that it just wasn’t fair that I couldn’t just have an “OOPS” moment with my partner like my friends and family were. They weren’t even trying to have a baby and they suddenly had three.

Then I realized, today, after reading this post, that I knew how hard it is on women who can’t conceive. But, I never realized just how blessed we were in comparison. That made me feel a little guilty. I’m a lesbian woman. I should have had a harder time getting pregnant. Most of the time, I feel guilty that it wasn’t harder for me to get pregnant. No, we didn’t go about the conceiving part the way most lesbians do. I didn’t do the IVF and I didn’t do donated sperm. It was all natural.

I didn’t chart more than a couple months to get my ovulation. My donor was here for a week. We took a shot and it worked. I didn’t have morning sickness and I didn’t have any complications really in my pregnancy.

This is not a blog about how easy I had it. Its actually a blog post about how her post humbled me. I always say that pregnancy was not for me. And I mean that. I hated being pregnant. I’m not ashamed to admit that. I am so happy for the end result. Our baby is precious to me and such a gift. However, I was miserable – physically and emotionally for most of my pregnancy.

Reading her post, though, made me realize that she would be overjoyed to experience even half of what I had experienced. She would be overjoyed to have morning sickness and pelvic pain. She would love to have that feeling of butterflies when the baby moves around inside her. AND I want her to have that. She’s a wonderful woman, who deserves to have that.

I used to have the same feelings she had when my sister would get pregnant. How it wasn’t fair that she could just conceive baby after baby and we would have to work so hard at it. So, in a way I know how she feels. Of course, not the same way, but I can definitely empathize with her situation.

There is a girl at work in the same boat. It always crosses my mind what these women will feel when I share my stories of Peyton or my pictures. Every time I post them, I worry that I will break their hearts a little more and that is certainly not my intention. In a way, I am always slightly humbled by these women and their struggles.

I hope someday soon, they will have the same joy I have in my life. I never thought it was possible. Nothing is impossible. I truly believe that. SO, keep your chin up, girls. I am rooting for you! I’m sending all the positive thoughts I can your way. I can’t imagine how hard it is for women who have trouble conceiving, but I am sure that it cannot be fun to watch others around you getting what you want so desperately.

Please know that I am aware that I am one of THOSE moms. Posting pictures constantly and always posting something new about my kiddo. I always have you in my thoughts when I post and I am always sending just a few more rays of sunshine in your direction.

I will rejoice with you when the day comes that you see that little positive sign on a pregnancy test. I believe with all my heart, you will have that joy.

Take Care

A Day In The Life of Peyton

Kim and I have a loose agreement on how to deal with late night feedings and daytime care when it comes to Peyton. Kim is a stay at home Mama and I am a working Mommy. This means she stays home with Peyton and takes care of daytime, I come home from work and take care of evening and overnight care of Peyton. I decided to give you a little glimpse into the life of Peyton.

***I apologize in advance for the non-edited pictures. I wanted to feature exactly what it looks like in the world of Peyton Shea.*** Also, please don’t assume that if there is a large gap between times that the last picture is all she did for that time frame. We didn’t take pictures of diaper changes and monotonous things.

Starting with my shift: Which actually starts when I get off work, but we will start it at 12AM, so we can get a good idea of what 24 hours looks like.

12:00 AM – Peyton went to sleep at around 9pm. I thought I might be slick and slip into bed around midnight without her noticing. It didn’t happen. She woke up just as my head hit the pillow. Then decided it was time to eat. She’s getting better at holding her own bottle.

At 3:50 am, Peyton thought it was time to get up yet again. She ate a full 6 oz. bottle and after a quick diaper change, she thought she might play with my blankets. This is her way of trying to stay awake. Mommy is just too blurry-eyed for that. Off to bed she goes again.

This is my attempt to take pictures in the COMPLETE DARKNESS of my bedroom.

6:53 am, Peyton makes a noise in her sleep. A tiny little noise really. I learned that no matter how deaf I was before I had a child, I hear every noise now that I am a Mommy. Guess who stayed asleep and who was awake? I’ll give you a minute to guess.

……….. 

7:20 am, I checked my Facebook on my phone and then thought it might be a good idea to try and go back to sleep. Just a few seconds after shutting my eyes, the little princess made yet another noise and I was awake to check.

Sound asleep right? Back into the bed I went.

7:24 am, Nope, she was playing opossum. She was awake and ready to eat again. So I climbed out of my bed and this is how I found her. Silly girl.

Peyton usually grabs onto the bottle like she is starving to death. She also has tiny monkey toes. She likes to wrap her legs around my arm when she eats.

I thought, since she was still rubbing her eyes and almost falling asleep on her bottle, that she might go back to sleep.

7:40 am – No such luck. This is what she thought of that idea. I laid her down and she squealed a little, made a little yawning noise and looked at me like I was the craziest Mommy in the world for thinking she might possibly be ready to go back to sleep.

See .. here she is laughing at me. Good try Mommy. I’m ready to get up now. Thanks.

7:42 am – I picked her up and brought her in the living room so her squealing (which she loves the sound of) wouldn’t disturb her Mama. She laid on her mat to watch her cartoons. She sure does love “Super Readers” and “Dinosaur Train.”

 8:50 am – Its time for Mommy to get ready for work, so just a little check in on the Princess. She’s comfortably watching “Dinosaur Train.” She gives me a look, like, Nothing to See Here! I quickly walk away, as to not disturb The Tiny Ruler Of The Universe.

 9:30AM – Right before Mommy walks out the door for work, Peyton is playing with Henrietta, her stuffed Hippo. She likes to suck on Henrietta’s face and ears. Peyton started to get a little restless right about this time – but she had been up for approximately 2 hours. That means, its almost naptime. Too bad she couldn’t have been ready for bed before I had to wake up her Mama.

Apparently, according to Mama, (who didn’t start taking pictures until later, because I didn’t tell her about this little project until later) She and Peyton went back to sleep when I went to work and then woke up later, which is where we will begin our pictures again.

11:21 AM – After napping, she played with her pig on the play mat. I am sure it was making all sorts of fun noises. That look on her face, is clearly saying “We are awake, Mama. Now what?”



11:24 AM – Barney. That’s what is next. Mama and Peyton watched Barney until it was time to eat again. Usually, Peyton eats as soon as she gets up, but she must not have been hungry quite yet. I hear, from Mama, that Barney is a must see show in our house.









11:41 AM – Its a busy day for Peyton. As always, its Sleep, Play, Eat (Repeat). For the most part, she doesn’t stray from this pattern, though admittedly, she does things longer one day and shorter the next. Its whatever she wants to do, really. She might be spoiled, but I like to say she just knows what she wants.





11:44 AM – After her mid-morning meal, Peyton is enjoying a book. She is a fan of Dr. Seuss. This particular book is “The Nose Book”. Though you will notice in our weekly pictures that her favorite book is “Fox in Socks”. However, Peyton really will listen to just about any book you read to her, so long as she can turn the pages for you.







11:45 AM – After the book is read, it is a tradition during story time to allow her to hold the book. To feel it and of course … to taste it. Apparently board books taste delicious. It produces lots of saliva from her tiny teething mouth. So, she is either trying to eat the book or she wants to learn the words through osmosis.




11:49 AM – Peyton calls Grammy on the phone. Now, she is only 5 months old (on Wednesday) so technically, Mama dialed the number and Peyton inspected her Grammy’s voice coming out of the box. Mama tells me that Peyton hung up on Grammy several times during this particular call. She’s not quite gotten a handle on keeping the phone open and not pushing buttons.



12:07 PM – Talking to Grammy is so exhausting that it is nap time again. Peyton goes to sleep in approximately 15 minutes or so. Which may seem like a long time while you are standing over her crib, patting her butt and rocking the bed. According to Mama, it felt more like 45 minutes.





12:51 PM – This picture is a little blurry, but you get the gist. “Just kidding, Mama.” She took a total of maybe 40 minutes of nap. She just wanted to talk to her Mama, I am sure. Her mouth is generally always opened and emitting some very strange growling, squealing, or delightful laughter or screeching sounds.

12:59 PM – Peyton loves green beans. We learned this pretty much the first day she ate them. She has been eating them consistently for the third day today. The first day, she struggled with swallowing, but obviously wanted to eat them. On the second day, she was getting better at swallowing and Mama says, today, the third day, she ate like the big girl she is! She finished the rest of her green beans and swallowed without any problems.

1:06 PM – After eating lunch, Peyton needed a snack. The appropriate snack would be her saucer toys. She promptly sticks them in her mouth and make sure at least one or two fingers are in the way too. 


Surely large amounts of drool ensued here. 



3:09 PM – Peyton played in her saucer until around 2:30 or so and then started to take a nap. She was sleeping when Mommy came home and took this picture on lunchtime.


Sad I didn’t get to play with her, but we all know, if Peyton doesn’t nap, no one in the apartment is very happy.

 4:41 PM – Waking up from her nap. She doesn’t look as cute here as she normally does. I think it might be Mama’s picture taking skills. (Shh. We won’t tell Mama.)





4:46 PM – Peyton has a tiny bottom tooth coming in. I can feel it and its sharp! She chews on everything. I got these rings with different textures at Hyvee for like 20 for $5.00. She loves them. I’m glad. She can hold onto them and chew on them for hours.







5:10 PM – She finished green beans earlier for lunch time. She started on Squash this time. Mama says she couldn’t fill the spoon and get it to her mouth fast enough. Peyton’s mouth just kept opening and closing for more. 

I’m glad she takes after Mama and likes her vegetables. 

5:54 PM – I don’t know what show this is, and Mama is asleep, so I can’t ask her. However, it does look like the camera and picture taking is starting to annoy Peyton. She just looks like she is telling her Mama, Enough is Enough.

6:13 PM –  I got Peyton this play mat at Wild Child for $30. It is Baby Einstein and apparently that makes it expensive. However, the point it, she has loved it ever since. We hang other toys on it, like her pull down pig and her talking bear. Mostly, she likes to hang off the sides and sometimes, if Mama stands her up, she will chew on those side pieces …. just for fun.







6:19 PM – Can’t miss a meal with my little girl. She is hungry and she will let you know about it. There is a certain kind of shrill in her shriek when the hunger pains are afloat. Here she is enjoying another part of her dinner.






6:37 PM – I’m not really sure what she is looking at here. I am willing to bet, this is more of a yawn than an inquisitive moment. Mama says she was getting sleepy, but she didn’t want to put her down for the night, so that Peyton could see me when I got home from work.



7:38 PM – This picture is pretty blurry, and that’s my fault. I got home and took it. She played with her doll on my bed while I got into my PJs. 113 degrees outside makes for a grimy clothes wearing day. Peyton and I spent that time just hanging out.







7:42 PM – I asked her what she did all day and I got this look. “You have been documenting my every move all day, Mom. Really?” Anyway, I discover something new each day, things she likes or doesn’t like. Since I work, I miss a lot of things that happen. I take this time to talk to her and play.  I found out she likes the crinkling sound of the wipes container, so she plays with it a lot.





7:56 PM – Since she loves that wipes container so much, I put it to good use. I moved to the other side of my bed and we had a little scooting practice. I showed her the wipes and she concentrated on it real hard. She is less pissy about being on her belly now. That’s nice. At least she doesn’t look at me with contempt and just fall asleep anymore. Anyway, she got frustrated half way across the bed, but she did make to the wipes. 




8:03 PM – After much practice and play in the bedroom, I decided a cute shot of Peyton and Mommy might be in order. We headed to the living room for more Squash. She looks so excited doesn’t she?









8:06 PM – Into the living room we went. I got her set up on her Bumbo and Mama was trying to show me how to better get the spoon in Peyton’s mouth without making a mess. Instead, Peyton decided to scan the bookshelf. The bookshelf in this particular room is for her mommies, her bookshelf is in the bedroom. I can’t imagine which book caught her attention.


She is kind of distractable.

8:13 PM – She wasn’t really interested in eating much, so we moved on. We haven’t been as consistent with “Your Baby Can Read” as I would like, so I popped it into the DVD player on the computer. She seemed to enjoy it. It is only the second time she has watched it and actually paid attention.




8:19 PM – However, we didn’t get very far into it. Remember she was tired when I got home from work and now its been almost an hour. She started to buck and squirm. She wanted out of her Bumbo. Luckily, her little legs are too chunky to allow her to try and stand on her own. The seat always comes with her when we pull her out of it.







8:22 PM – So we started up the bed time routine. Which is also not very consistent. Sometimes she’s asleep before I get home. However, tonight, she was not. So, off to the bathroom we went for bath time. She squeals and giggles every time we get ready to take a bath. Its adorable.





8:35 PM – All fresh and clean and out of the bath. Mama said we had to cover up her little body if we were taking pictures. Which of course I agree. We got this smile though because the gust of air hit her in the face as the towel was wrapped quickly around her.




8:37 PM – All dressed and ready for bed. She uses Mama’s fingers to walk across the bed to see Mommy for a bed time story. Look how excited she is for story time!









8:38 PM – Reading “Fox in Socks” by Dr. Seuss. It happens to be her favorite story to read. She likes to help Mommy turn the pages. I am pretty sure in this picture I am stumbling over the words. That makes her giggle usually. That book is kind of dangerous to the tongue.









8:43 PM – Its time for one more bottle before bed. She was already sleepy before I got home from work, so getting to bed was a piece of cake. At night, I like to hum and sing to her while she drinks her bottle. It seems to relax her, its like her own little ‘quiet time’.





8:54 PM – It took no time at all to get her to sleep. She was out until around 1 AM, so no more pictures for the night. This concludes her 24 hour picture show.










Take Care