Moving From Baby to Toddler

Our little Punky is going to be 2 in four and a half months. When the hell did that happen?! I’m STILL astonished we even have a child. I’m STILL astonished when I look at her and feel like I’m in a dream. Like is this really my life?

I know that work has been a little stressful for me and frankly, I’m pretty sure I had a mild nervous breakdown a couple weeks ago when the supervisor position went haywire. But, I saw a side of me that I haven’t seen in years. I don’t want to see that side of me. I’ve worked very very hard to leave her behind, the bitter, angry, selfish, bitch me has no place in this new life we are building with our most precious baby girl turned toddler.

I’m not ashamed to say that I am going to be getting my medication readjusted and I’m relieved about it. I’m not a nutjob, seriously, but I have a lot of mood problems and my hormones are still out of whack from having Punky, and my anxiety  is “through the roof” if you hear K tell it. So, I’m getting it fixed.

I also learned, while I have always known this, that my childhood was lacking in places I didn’t really notice until I had a kid. I know my parents did the best they could, I didn’t really lack for much, but my noticing it now, makes me even more determined to make sure that Punky has the childhood I didn’t have.

With that said, we do so much with her that I never got to do. Tuesday, we went to the pumpkin patch and she had fun, even though she didn’t have a nap and kind of started to melt down. In the end, I think it was a success.

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This picture warms my heart, I absolutely love seeing Punky and K together.

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Punky is checking out the chickens.

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Taking a little break and looking around the scenery.

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This last week or so we have been putting together Punky’s big girl room. We finally got the non-essential furniture out of there and now, I’m totally going nuts! We have picked the universe theme. I like the sciencey bit of it and she really enjoys the stars and the lights that go with it.

We live in an apartment, so we aren’t supposed to paint the walls, so I did have to improvise some of the wall decor!

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So, while Punky heads into being 2 years old, we are getting ready to put together her toddler bed, finish up her room and continue to make me thrilled to have the child we have, tantrums and all!!

My next post will likely not be until after Halloween or the Halloween party we are going to this weekend. More pictures of that to come, for sure!

Its Been 7 months

Is it crazy that I am still astonished that we have a child? I mean, I get it. I planned for her, I carried her for nine months and she has been moving and shaking outside my belly for 7 months. I still can’t believe it. I still can’t fathom the fact that we have a child.

I find it hard to wrap my mind around the overwhelming sense of joy and love I have for Peyton. There is more in her eyes that melt my heart than anything ever has in my life. I never thought I could love someone as much as I love our daughter.
We were truly blessed. Absolutely blessed. I am not a religious person, so I am not quite sure how we were blessed, but its the only word I can think of to try and explain how I feel. Lucky, might be another way. Rewarded. For what, I am not sure. I can’t imagine what great deed I did in my life to deserve such a treasure. 
She has changed so much in the last 7 months. Her pictures really show how much she has changed. She started out as a tiny little blob of baby and she has grown into a ball of energy.
In the last 31 weeks, she has started crawling. She pulls herself up on things. She is never still for more than a few moments. She’s a giant. She is wearing 6-9 month sleepers and 12 month shirts and pants. She wears a size 2 shoe. She’s a TV junkie, which I suppose may not be good for her, but she’s a baby and she watches PBS Kids (To hell with you Mitt Romney, that’s a whole different topic). Our kid is smart. She is beautiful. She has personality.
She dances and she gives me wet. slobbery kisses and I love every minute of it. She eat “Happy Puffs” and really enjoys the Blueberry Sweet Potato and the Spinach Apple. We started giving her diced carrots and baby yogurt. Just this evening, she had a mixture of rice cereal and Plum Banana baby food. She ate the entire concoction. She doesn’t play around when it comes to her food.


All mothers should be real and make sure to mention that motherhood is a thankless job. Really, there are moments that I just don’t want to wrestle with her when I get home. I will be honest. But, then I look at her little smile and I just have to. I don’t have a choice. The little smile, full of four tiny teeth, she just gets me every time. No matter how tired I may be, she lights up my world.
She can smack me with her jerky little arm movements. She can pull my hair and poke me in the eye and I just don’t care. I am so thankful to have her in my life.
She truly is a miniature me, but she is so much more than that! To Kim and I both, she is the miracle that we have been given. She is the gift that we can share the rest of our lives. The bond that we will never break. 
I feel like now, when I had truly given up hope of having a child, I am finally fulfilled. She has completed me. I believe she has completed us. Our family is finally whole and after 7 months, I still can’t believe it.
Take Care
❤ Rachael

Peyton’s Half Birthday – 6 months old.

Peyton is 6 months old today. She has giving me a run for my money already. She’s been teething and quite sickly this morning. Screaming since 4 AM and not consolable at all. So, my idea of capturing yet another day of Peyton has been riddled with sad, sickly kiddo pictures. However, we will go on and do 24 hours of my newly 6 month old baby girl. Happy half birthday, Punky Monster. Mommy loves you even when you are sick and cranky.

11:20 PM: Mommy couldn’t make it until Midnight. So sleepy.
So, we took one last picture before the big HALF BIRTHDAY! This is the last moment captured before she turned 6 months old.

She fell asleep pretty early and in the last few days, she has been fighting us at bedtime. She also seems to think that its time to get up at 4AM. We will have to work on that.

1:42 AM: Peyton is officially 6 months old. Mommy got up to go to the bathroom and snapped this shot really quickly. The flash is so bright, I am surprised she didn’t wake up!

3:25 AM: Mama Kim came to bed around this time, so Mommy thought she might snap another picture. Amazed that Peyton hadn’t woken up yet. Isn’t she just the most precious sleeping 6 month old baby cakes? Maybe this will be the night she sleeps through the night?

3:27 AM: No such luck. Instead, she woke up and started squealing. This is Mama’s favorite time of day though. Half asleep babies are good for cuddling and petting.

4:19AM Thru 5:20AM: Peyton finished her bottle and we tried to put her back to sleep. She was not having any of that. Instead, Mama took her out in the living room to see if she could wear her out. This picture is actually when Mama gave up and crashed and Mommy got up and took her into the living room instead. Such a tired baby, yet … she will not go to sleep.

 

 5:42 AM: She started to get sweaty and feverish. She just wouldn’t stop screaming. I took her temperature and it was not abnormal. I gave her some Tylonol.

5:43 AM: When that didn’t work, I got out the Hyland’s Teething tablets. They are tiny little white tablets that you put on her tongue and they dissolve instantly. Her Aunt Brittany says they taste like the candy stix in FunDip. I don’t really know, I didn’t try them to confirm her story.

5:44 AM: When that didn’t work, but she was chewing on my fingers, I gave her some Baby Orajel, Nighttime and handed her a teething ring. This worked for a tiny moment. She was at least a little less banshee like. I swear sometimes, with the shrieks that come out of her mouth, I wonder if I did in fact give birth to a baby Banshee Queen.

5:55 AM: I took her back to the bedroom and rocked her a bit. She did finally fall asleep. I laid her in bed and headed back to the living room. By this time, I was awake. Ready to catch up on my TV shows.

6:34 AM: It didn’t last very long. About 30 minutes later, Peyton started screaming again. I went and got her out of her bed again. I tried to feed her, but there was no consoling her. This was shaping up to be the worst first Half Birthday Ever, and we were only 6 hours into it.

7:01 AM: Peyton started to calm down a bit and yawn around 7AM. I was hoping I could get her to go sleep then. So, off to the bedroom we went again, to try and put her back to sleep.

7:24 AM: It took 20 minutes of singing, humming, rocking, and butt patting to finally get her to go to sleep. She burped a lot and hopefully that was her main problem. She stopped squealing and shrieking and fell asleep. I finally got her to lay in her bed and covered her tiny feet.

Mommy went back to the living room, because of course, still not tired.

10:16 AM: Just as I was thinking I might go back to bed, I laid my head on my pillow and a tiny shriek came from the baby’s bed. I snapped this shot before I turned on her mobile. The mobile distracted her long enough to give me a tiny … very tiny cat nap.

10:35 AM: Peyton was smiling and laughing by the time she got up from her very long sleep. That made me feel better too. Her tears were dried when I turned on her cartoons and gave her a nice warm bottle.

 11:20 AM: Sigh. She started to get feverish again and she smelled like dirty babies smell. Sweat, puke, and drool. Anyone without babies, I can’t even explain it to you. So, I put her on the cool bathroom floor while I ran her bath water. FYI: She started on her belly and by the time I turned around, she was on her back.

11:24 AM: The newest game that Peyton likes to play is swimming in the bath tub. She likes to pull the drain level down, by splashing her way from the back of the tub to the front and then hanging on it. However, in this picture, I was in the middle of washing her hair when she thought this might be a good time to start the game.

11:28 AM: Right after her bath, we spent some time with her friend in the mirror. That baby always cheers her up!

11:32 AM: Mommy got her dressed and turned on the cartoons again. She decided it might be a better vantage point if she propped herself up on the pillow and watched from there. This is how serious she is about The Cat and the Hat Knows A lot About That.

12:04 PM: Hanging out after her bath, drinking a bottle and rocking some flower pants.

12:16 PM: Mama woke up and Peyton gave her a nice pet on her hand to say Good Morning!

12:22 PM: Peyton is working on a poop in this picture. I know, it doesn’t look like it by that innocent face. However, Mommy also learned not to let her sit in her saucer and try to poop, it causes poop all the way up her back.

2:44 PM: Shortly after being changed, Peyton fell asleep again. She had a nice little nap, perhaps to sleep off the long, trying morning. I had gone into the bedroom to lay down, myself and snapped this fast little picture of her.

3:59 PM: We both woke up and had to take a minute to wake up. Some people look cuter than their Mommy when she wakes up. It could be because she’s a professional sleeper!

4:10 PM: Soon, she was back to herself. The earlier bout of sickness has past and she was in her playpen, sucking on her toes! So basically … back to normal.

 4:35 PM: Having a moment with Mama. Kisses were definitely involved. Peyton has started to give kisses, with the normal open mouth baby lips. Full of slobber and yet they are still the sweetest kisses ever.

4:38 PM: This is what Peyton takes pictures of when she gets a hold of Mommy’s camera and crawls on her.

4:49 PM: Mama gave her a pretzel stick. It was mostly something to suck on and make into a slobbery mess! All in good fun, who cares, its her half birthday.

5:05 PM: When left to her own devices on the floor, Peyton has been known to do some silly things. In this case, she is trying to figure out how to get milk out of the bottom of her bottle. I don’t think she ever figured that out and later she just turned it around to drink it correctly.

5:11 PM: She moved to pushing over her BUMBO and rolling it all over the floor.

5:20 PM: When she got bored of that, she decided it was try to crawl again. She didn’t quite get there, but she did flop onto her face a few times. Which in itself is adorable to watch.

Mommy and Aunt Brittany left for Walmart around 6:00PM, in search of a cake and party supplies. By the time they got home, Peyton was taking YET ANOTHER nap.

9:00 PM:  Peyton woke up from her nap and we slapped on a sticker “Half Birthday Girl”. She was still so sleepy that she had lines on her face.

Disclaimer: Peyton is usually not up this late. We don’t keep her up this late. Unfortunately, today she was completely off her sleep schedule for unknown reasons.

9:01 PM: Mommy altered a tiny balloon we got at Hyvee. Of course, I put the 1/2 in the wrong spot, but whatever. Its still awesome!

9:05 PM: Mommy put some candles in a tiny SUGAR FREE CAKE. Really, the cake was more for the mess factor than for eating. Good thing I took a picture before she smashed it.

9:06 PM: Aunt Brittany took a picture of Peyton and her mommies. The only thing I can see in this picture, however, is that fact that Peyton is trying to move my arm so she can get to the cake.

I promise, she had very little cake in her mouth.

9:07 PM: Arms up! Last thing we want is burned fingers on our half birthday! We sang “Happy Half Birthday” and her mommies helped her blow out the candles. She just kept looking at us like we were nuts.

We probably are. In the words of my sister, Brittany. “Not many people celebrate half birthdays. In fact, you may be the only crazy.”

9:11 PM: And then the mayhem started. She got a little taste of the whipped icing, but she never really stuck her fingers in the cake part. She really just smeared it around on the tray of her highchair.

9:14 PM: Celebration was over pretty quickly. Now its bath time. The ‘not icing’ icing was kind of floaty, so it made washing up crazy hard. I washed her up as best I could, but she smelled like she was wearing Cupcake Perfume.

9:22 PM: Winding down the day with duck pants and some wiggles on the floor. All clean!

9:54 PM: Rolling around in the playpen, playing with her penguin. We just decided to let her wind down on her own tonight. Its her Half birthday! She’s allowed.

10:27 PM: Mama put her sticker on her butt and let her scoot all over the floor.

11:11 PM: In the midst of all that rolling and scooting (wearing her out), she came across the Mickey Mouse that my dad gave her. She just learned how to push the buttons to make him sing to her. She sucked on his thumb at one point. Apparently, his plushy thumb tastes better than her own thumb.

11:17 PM: Mama joined her on the floor and they played the “Kisses” Game. She’s giving baby kisses right now, like little babies do. Open mouth and giggles.

11:18 PM: Peyton started to get sleepy here and her head got heavy. She smacked it on the floor and was not so happy about it. She made sure we were all aware of her upset.

11:33 PM: One last bottle before bed.

11:42 PM: And after a long winded Half Birthday, my baby Peyton has concluded her first day as a 6 month old!