Hello???? YooHoo! Anyone out there?
I just have no excuse for the lack of writing in this blog, except I connected with a lot of the mommy bloggers on Facebook, and I just let this thing go to the wayside. I did notice the last post I made was on the Women’s March and I was so angry at that time, so its likely I was so obsessed with the Trump election and how it was going down I just couldn’t bring myself to put my thoughts down anywhere, because they were fucking crazy.
Anyway, can you believe it? We are parents of a Kindergartener! Holy shit, guys, I didn’t even think having a kid was possible 10 years ago, let alone a damn kid in school. It’s like I’m living in some sort of twilight zone. There are a lot of current events I could discuss for my first post back, and the real issues going on in our country with politics, or the hurricane that’s ravaging our southern lands, but man I don’t have the energy today. So, instead, I’m gonna tell you about my kid is in Kindergarten!
She’s been in school for a little over a month, and for a kid who’s not been in daycare or didn’t have Preschool as a primer, she’s doing so well!
Its been an adjustment for all of us though. I’m lucky enough to be working from home now, since losing my job in February and going through some pretty intense depression and anxiety issues. Now I can get up with her and get her ready for school, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle lunchbox, and walk her to the bus stop. I didn’t have that as a kid and it’s so nice to be able to do that for her. She happily walks to the bus stop, skipping all the cracks, because amazingly that’s the first thing she learned in school, stepping on cracks will break her Mama’s back, and we all know Mama’s back doesn’t need anymore help in that department.
I don’t know where the time has gone. She used to be my little bucket of drool that I could lay on my chest and nap with on the couch, and now she’s reading 15 sight words and giving me the lowdown on how pictures tell a story. These pictures tell a story too, little one, the story of how fast the time goes when you have a baby you never expected to have.
In other news, I started going back to school as well in March. I am attending an online school to get my Graphic Arts degree. Its been such an awesome program and I’m learning so much. When I enrolled they sent me a tablet and a MacBook with all the design software downloaded on it and that’s a ton of expenses I didn’t have to worry about, all rolled into the tuition. With our lack of transportation and my anxiety, online classes has really helped me further this goal of mine. I have found my passion, and it’s something I’ve been doing as a hobby for years.
For those of you who have been following for a while (if anyone is still following), I have been running an Etsy shop for about 4 years. I design party invitations for baby showers, bridal showers, birthday parties and holiday parties. I love it. I have the most fun designing for baby showers for two moms. I didn’t have that option, or not any well designed options when I was pregnant, and I am just so happy to provide the option.
I’ve been working on new projects with my new skills and it’s been so liberating to be able to do the things I enjoy as a job. I have been working for roadside assistance customer service as well, along with some freelance virtual assistant jobs to keep us a float. Finances haven’t been easy this year, mental illness is a real issue in our house, but the biggest challenge is not letting our kiddo see the struggles we go through to provide for her.
Things are looking up though, thank goodness, for the first time this year, I’m starting to feel a bit of the burden lift, we are still struggling, but hopefully by Christmas I can feel more stable.
In the end, we are all three doing well. With the occasional request for a baby sister that won’t be happening, we are navigating the new reality of school age kid and working from home mom, and it’s been an adventure. Our family motto has become “We will make it work, we always do.” and it’s the thing that keeps us going. We don’t have a lot, but we have each other and we have love to hold us together as we make it through 2017 in tact.
Thanks to one of my favorite mommy bloggers, Kristin over at More Than Words for reminding me of the blogging world, I have missed this blog and I’ve been thinking of starting it up again, but she really put the motivation back in me yesterday when she messages all the mommy bloggers and kickstarted the writing bug in me.
Hope all is well with the rest of you and I’m looking forward to getting back into the blogging world with more fun adventures of motherhood, classes, and being a decent human being.