8/52 – Discovering Preschool

A whole lot has happened in the last few weeks. We have been doing a ton of things.

Today though, our daughter, little Miss Punky, started preschool today!

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I got her up this morning and she got up earlier than normal, so when I told her “We are going to school!” she shook her head at me in her sleepy eyed expression and said “No Mommy.” after she’s been asking for it all week.

Once I got her out of bed, dressed, and ready to go, she couldn’t get out of the apartment fast enough and quiet enough with all the cheering she was doing.

When we got to the preschool to drop her off, I couldn’t get her coat off fast enough before she was moving onto playing and Mommy was no longer interesting. I set up her stuff with the teachers and then came back to tell her bye before I left to go to work, she didn’t really look like she gave it a second thought!

I was a little anxious leaving her, but finding her quite content, I left with a half ass hug and a forced kiss on the cheek. I thought about what she was doing all day and wondering if she was scared or if she was doing alright.

By the time I got back to pick her up, I walked in and asked her if she wanted to go home and she said, “No Mommy.” I got her to come around to the idea of going home to see her Mama.

When we got home, she was playing in her room and suddenly I hear her in there yelling “Help! Help me!”

We haven’t ever heard this before so I was a little alarmed. Come to find out, she needed her butt changed. She had pooped in her pull-up and she wanted help getting her butt changed. Well, goodness, that’s a new development.

ALSO, she’s currently eating a pepperoni – that’s also a first! Maybe the preschool will kick my picky eater out of the house!

They told me she had a good day and she only cried for a minute when another mom was picking up her kid. So, seems like she had a good day.

I’m hoping she will sleep well tonight!

I’ve been also planning her birthday party. It’s a Cars theme. Racecar mostly, but since I can find all sorts of stuff in the Cars movie theme, we have a Cars blowout planned.

Now that people have gotten the invitations, I can share it. This is the one I sell in the Etsy shop, so it doesn’t have our information on it, but this is what it looks like.

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I am working on making her a pillowcase dress out of Cars fabric, which will be black and red primarily. Likely short enough to put her in leggings underneath, since it’s probably going to cold. I’m super excited about it.

I plan on ordering a blank round cake for her candles and then her Grammy and I are going to make a whole lotta cupcakes! I got some cars cupcake wrappers and cupcake towers and I made my own cupcake toppers.

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I have all sorts of ideas for finger foods and Cars themed names like the powdered donuts as “white wall tires” and chocolate covered donuts as “spare tires” and chex mix as “nuts and bolts” and all sorts of other stuff! I’m super excited about the party.

I have lots of decorations in mind and I have sketched it out from my head to paper and gathering up the stuff I need to make this party as good as last  year. Lots of stuff!!

And finally, this last weekend, I took Miss Punky to a birthday party for a little girl that we have known since she was a quasi-neighbor. The girl is two weeks older than Punky so its fun to see them grow up and blossom together.

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And I took her, in her super cute birthday party outfit to our favorite picture taking spot. But, it was a little too chilly to hang out there, so we took a few pictures, but it ended in tears and then hugs.

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All in all, we had a decent weekend and a great first two days to the week!

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Guess Who Starts Pre-School on Tuesday

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I enrolled Miss Punky into daycare part time for two days a week. It’s a daycare with a Preschool curriculum, so I’m excited for her to go. It’s not as pricey as I would have thought, perhaps not what I want to spend extra money on that we don’t really have, but it will be worth it.

We have decided that while we know that Punky is turning two and it’s just her developmental stage, she’s also bored. She doesn’t really get out and go places and see other kids on a regular basis. We are thinking that may have lead to some of the outbursts and tantrums.

In fact, since the start of the sticker chart, I have seen less frustration and agitation from her. I don’t see her all day, but so far, she seems to be more subdued!

Anyway, she’s going to be attending daycare from 7:30AM – 5:30PM in the 2-3 year old (Coconuts) classroom starting on Tuesday and she will go Tuesdays and Thursdays. It’s a pretty nice facility and the staff seems great! She will have breakfast, lunch, and two snacks; as well as a nap by the time I pick her up from school.

Speaking of naps, I needed to get her a nap mat for school, so I went online to look, Walmart had some pretty cheap ones, so I let her tell me which ones she liked. She said yes to a bunch and to all the princess ones she made an emphatic “No” and she said yes to five different ones. I put them all on one page and asked her to pick her favorite.

This was verdict!

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The dinosaur! I expected her to pick the cars one, but she kept pointing between the dinosaur and the owl. But every time she left and came back it was dinosaur. So her dinosaur nap mat has been ordered. It won’t come in time for her to go to school on Tuesday, but in a few weeks it will be here.

I got paid today, so I was able to pick up some ‘school clothes’ or ‘play clothes’ for her to take to school and keep there. Since she’s in the 2-3 year old class, they suggested that I bring enough for potty training, because she will probably see the other kids potty training and be interested.

So, on top of starting preschool and picking out her own nap mat. She now has panties. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

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I cannot believe that I am already buying panties for my big girl. I mean, seriously, she will be 2 in literally 2 weeks!! She has a variety of panties in Dora, My Little Pony, and plain pink and white designs. We won’t be pushing the idea and I told  her teachers to let her lead, but we may have a potty trained two year old before you know and I am just floored.

I can’t take much more of this. I hear if you stop feeding them, they stop growing .. I can’t get her to stand still long enough to put books on her head, so perhaps that method will work!

Oi. People. Our kid is starting to stress me out and not in a bad way!! This Mommy is all kinds of sentimental right now, mostly over panties. LOL.

First Line of Defense in the Toddler Wars

So, I really appreciate all the words of encouragement from everyone; family and friends and blog friends! Today, we got things together to make her a sticker/reward chart and hopefully it will be helpful.

So, yesterday’s snack tray didn’t go too well – I think it was mostly because it was ‘slimy’ or wet fruits and she’s really touching and squishing things before she will try something.

We decided today to make one food on the snack tray her “Try New Food” sticker reward. This morning it was a banana and that didn’t go well. By the time she was up from nap, the bananas were well past their prime, so we changed the ‘new food’ to dried apricots.

Today’s tray was full of cheerios of different flavors, veggie fries, yogurt covered granola, dried blueberries, and dried apricots. All dry finger foods so that it was not wet foods this time. She’s taken to the tray more today, and hasn’t tried to pick it up and move it!

I can’t decide if it’s because it’s the second day and she’s getting used to having it around already or if it’s just she likes the food on it. She hadn’t had blueberries before and she’s been scarfing those down. So, for that – it’s a success!

I put together her sticker chart today, and let Punky pick out the colors of the foam on the board and the other things.

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We originally picked out 10 things we wanted to have on the chart and I figure that may be too many, but for now, I wanted her to have lots of options to earn her stickers. So, she may not get them all, but she will get little goodies in between, until we get the hang of the chart.

Like, when she finally took one bite of the apricot – I then gave her something sweet after her sticker so as to further reinforce that she did a great job trying something new.

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We will see what happens at dinner time – let’s hope we have a party in our tummy tonight! Which is really just three bites of her dinner. Because we’ve come to notice that if she eats from her snack tray all day, then she may not be as hungry as we would like her to be.

We have decided to give Punky the same foods we eat, we had been making her chicken nuggets or Eggo’s instead of our food to accommodate her toddler taste palette, however, that has really been part of the problem. Now, we are giving her what we eat and her snack tray in the day.

She can have a sticker for trying one ‘special’ food from her tray and a sticker for eating her dinner. Hopefully, this will help curb her eating issues that are really driving us nuts around here.

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I‘m pretty proud of our finished product. It’s artsy and colorful and super awesome. She also knows exactly where her stickers are – in the Cars bag (that she picked out at the store) hanging on the wall.

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We have a list of things side and a rewards side.

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She picked out all the little treats and rewards she gets – we know she won’t be able to wait until the end of the week for her reward, so these are the big ones. We will give her daily rewards to start and as she gets more used to the chart, we can move and transition into weekly treats.

I think it’s going to be good for her. I hope.

Wish us luck! We are going one NO TANTRUMS so far today, at the time that I write this. I think it’s going well so far!

7/52 – Exploring the Ever Growing Toddler Terrorist

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We have been dealing with the early stages of the terrible twos. This includes tantrums that have been known to shriek at the top of her lungs, throwing her food on the floor and the ever popular banging her head on the floor. This has been going on since she was about 18 months old, slowly escalating to where we are today.

I’ve talked about the fact that both of Punky’s moms have some sort of diagnosed mental health issues. I have a little PTSD and Anxiety and Kim is Bipolar with a heavy dose of her own PTSD. Having a toddler thrown in the mix has been hard. Not unmanageable, but hard.

We are the type of parents who want to instill respect and manners in our child, use discipline that is appropriate for her age and her understanding. But, at the end of the day, whether you like it or not – whether people talk about it or not, I’m going to say it – the TWOS suck and she’s not even officially two for another two weeks.

The situation escalated last night when I came home and found a distraught Kim sitting in a chair with Spaghetti and Meatballs at her feet. Astonished by the amount on the floor isn’t even the most telling part. The story that Kim told me – just reinforced that we need to do something different.

Punky managed to kick her high chair tray so much and so hard that it came loose and it dumped an entire child’s bowl of food on our carpet. We aren’t a family of means, we live paycheck to paycheck, period. Now we have a very large orange stain on our carpet.

All Kim could say was “Why won’t she just eat?”

And my response, probably not the most empathetic was “She’s two.” Plain and simple. We both know it. But, frankly, rationally it’s hard to think logically when the child doesn’t think with reason or logic herself.

How do you handle a two year old who is so smart and so sweet and so full of life and on the go and then can very quickly turn into a completely different person in a matter of seconds. I know this is just the developmental stage, but it’s wearing on us. It’s wearing us very thin.

When I went to my therapist appointment today, we talked about it. I cried, I broke down a lot in that hour. I’ve been having increasingly more anxiety attacks, mostly at work – but that’s another story, and I’m finding it hard to cope at home without feeling like a terrible mother.

We are trying to steer away from spanking, I was spanked as a child and I’m sure it’s not left any damaging, lasting effects on me as an adult, but it’s just something I want to use as a last resort. It’s becoming more difficult.

She gave me some tips and I think we will be putting them to use. So far, we have talked about tackling some of the behavior by praising the good behavior more. We shower the praise when Punky has ‘learned something new’ but not really when she’s doing ‘desired behavior’. It never occurred to me to praise her when she’s not screaming at me and just playing normally in her room.

So today, Punky and I went to the store and picked out some stuff for the new sticker chart we are making, I’ll post more about the construction when I come up with the design I like. We picked out stickers with Dora and Cars and stars and all her favorite things. We picked out a ‘reward bag’ that I will introduce that has little trinkets like bracelets and candy necklaces and light up rings and all sorts of goodies for her to earn.

This afternoon, when we got home, she was in a “terrorist” state, she needed a nap for sure and for a toddler, nap time and sleep time have never really been much of an issue for Punky. She tells us when she’s tired and for the most part, goes to sleep with no problems or small bouts of crying it out. So she went to take a nap and her moms, exhausted already, took a nap as well.

When I woke up, I decided to try the method of ‘grazing’. We’ve done this all along, sort of. We give her a bag of veggie fries and she can eat them whenever she wants or she doesn’t really eat breakfast at a table or in her highchair, we just give her a finger food of some sort and call it a day.

The “grazing” method, from what I have read is all about letting her be a busy and exploratory toddler while still having snacks and foods available to her. I gather it’s all about not confining her to one place to eat. I’m not sure how it will work for dinner time, but so far she’s been receptive to the ‘snack tray’.

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I took a muffin tin that I already had in my kitchen and let her help me fill the compartments. So, I filled it with stuff we had in the kitchen already. I know some of it, like jello and fruit snacks, may not be the most healthy, but I wanted to start with familiar foods to her, that I know she will eat and move into other foods.

I put the fruit snacks in the center, surrounded by the granola bars and diced fruit, hoping to entice her with the stuff she’s never wanted to eat before.

The Apple O’s (knock-off Apple Jacks) went first and she’s found the fruit snacks and they are also gone. But, she’s also ventured into the granola bar and I’m waiting anxiously for her to pick up a banana or a pineapple.

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When she comes up to the tray, which is stationed by my seat on the couch in the living room – on a table at her height level, I have been telling her “Good job!” or commenting about how “YUMMY” new foods are and stuff. So, far she’s stuck to the familiar food and perhaps when that runs out she will try something newer. In any event, I’m excited to see if this helps create a more peaceful mealtime for us and for Punky.

So far, she’s gone back and forth between the tray and her room and dancing in the living room. We have only been implementing it for approximately an hour, so I’m not saying it is a cure all, but for the time being, we are getting some sanity.

I’d be all ears for any other suggestions or tips on how we can curb some of the tantrums and eating issues we are having with the little one. I’m all about ‘ignoring bad behaviors’ but at the end of the day, I’m afraid ignoring it reinforces her to act out to get attention.

We are slowly coming up with ways to tame our toddler terrorist and I am all open for suggestions from veteran moms or moms in the same boat! Tell me what has worked for you, seriously. I’m willing to try anything.

In other news, another way we have been talking about curbing the toddler twos is to get Punky into a preschool in the area. She’s going to be 2 in early March and the place I’m looking at have a preschool program that I really like. It’s going to be a financial stretch, having to live paycheck to paycheck already, but 2 days a week will give Kim a much needed break and Punky some social skills with other kiddos. In the end, I think it will also help me – knowing I can come home from work to a peaceful, more harmonious house and family. Here’s to hoping it helps – though I’m not looking forward to sickness and germs that come with ‘school’ and ‘daycare’ in small kids, but it comes with the territory and I’m starting to think the good effects may outweigh those flaws.

6/52 – New Haircut

IMG_4594Discovering new ways to do Miss Punky’s hair. Thanks to the girl who cut her hair for suggesting it. I absolutely love the place that cuts her hair, they are fun and easy and totally geared towards kids.

We also discovered new ways to spend time together. We have been to Smallcakes before, it’s a cupcakery that has all sorts of very delicious cupcakes. So after her haircut this week, we took 3.25 and shared a Caramel Crunch cupcake and it was awesome.

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Overall, we had another great week.

We also learned some new words. Like “Clock” except she can’t say the “L”, thus it comes out very inappropriate. Mix that with Kim encouraging her to say she likes “Clocks and Balls” – which thank goodness she can’t fully say, it’s pretty hilarious, but so very inappropriate!

 

My Brand New Writing Project

It took me a while, but I finally completed the several articles on the “Mommy Wars”. It was pretty enlightening for me, as I did have to research different points of view and read articles on both sides of the fences. Please check it out and if you are feeling inclined, you can share!

Also, if you have pictures of yourself or your kids on either side of these battles I definitely want to use them! Let me know if you are willing to let me add them to the web series. It’s not just the idea of bringing a voice to these battles between moms and parents, but it’s about putting a face to those battles as well. I would love to not use stock photos or models for these illustrations. If you are comfortable with me using your pictures, please let me know!

Please check out the web series by clicking on the image below!

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Midwest Annual Snowpocalypse Makes Me A Temporary (Insane) SAHM

So, this snow thing, the over-abundance of snow is becoming Mother Nature’s damn cruel joke every year. Right around the same time each year in fact. This will be the second year in a row that I’ve been snowed in for more than 2 days.

When the Snowpocalypse comes to town you would think that would be awesome. A couple days to just sit and relax and recharge. And then you remember, I’m a working mom for a reason. My sanity. Not to mention that a cooped up toddler is no fun on a normal day off, but when you have no choice but to do indoor activities because of the 10 inches of snow piling up in the yard, amusing your child becomes a job all on it’s own.

I have always said that SAHMs have their own set of challenges and I’m not one for those very reasons. I am glad that we have the ability to have one of each type of mom in the house and she’s not in daycare, but it also helps me recognize the differences both types of moms go through.

So, my exercise in being a temporary SAHM further re-inforces why I’m just not cut out to do it full-time. However, thanks to Pinterest, I had some ideas for keeping Punky entertained. How do parents without Pinterst do it? Oh, hell, what did we do before Pinterest? I know, moms have been entertaining kids for years without it, but I’m just not that creative on my own. That’s not where my creativity lies.

Oh. And what about the parents who don’t allow TV. How the hell do they function? I just don’t know.  Props to you.

Anyway, before the snow got too terrible yesterday, I took Punky outside for the first snow of her existence that she could actually play in. The first year, she was teeny tiny and I took her out only long enough to get a picture in the cute snowsuit and under a snow covered tree. This year, she got to wander in it, kick it up and experience the ‘1 glove wonder’ of mom tricks everywhere!

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I took some time yesterday to finish up Punky’s birthday party invitations and also the insert that will be going into them. I’m pretty darn proud of the insert. I used one of the snow pictures and manipulated it. (Clearly, this is where my creativity lies, LOL). I know I don’t frequently use her “given” name on the blog, but it’s a bit too time consuming to go back and edit it just for the showcase!

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My sister-in-law went into labor last night and had our newest nephew by C-Section. Mr. Archer was a most anticipated baby for our entire family and we are all excited to meet and cuddle the Littlest Avenger! And when I am able to announce the stats of this precious little baby, I will share the nursery print I created for them to hang in the nursery!

Today has been a stay inside day, because I’m pretty sure the snow may come up to Punky’s waist or chest, not sure, she’s kind of a short person. Of course, just as I type that, I’m now curious to see what would happen if I took her out there and covered her in snow!

Instead. we have found lots of things for Punky to do, but with her attention span so very small, it’s not really working to keep her entertained and preventing her from hanging on me (Mommy is really not interested in wearing the two year old, I wasn’t ever really much of an attachment parent to begin with!).

I’ve been trying to work on her ‘threading’ which apparently works out her fine motor skills. So yesterday I showed her how to thread beads on pipe cleaners. Today, we made “wonder dough” and stacked Apple Jacks on dry noodles.

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It was fun, until she thought she had to eat the dough. It’s really not edible, but it only took two ingredients and I happened to have both ingredients in the house.

The afternoon, before the nap we just laid her down for, ended with a Blow-pop covered face and a promise for possible playing outside in the snow. Luckily for me, she’s not yet 2 and probably won’t remember that promise when I am not feeling it later!

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Hey, by the way, if you haven’t taken the survey from my previous post, please do. You can find it here. (Moms and Dads!) I need 12 more responses before I can start my writing series on Hubpages, so I have an even 100. After I get the 100 responses, I am closing the survey and writing the results. I will keep you posted on that!

Hope everyone is staying warm and entertained on this Wednesday afternoon!

5/52 and a Favor

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Chalkboard drawing and exploring our creativity!

Now, I am planning on doing a writing series over on my Hubpages account, where I tend to write articles frequently. It’s a series on the “Mommy Wars”. So, about that favor… I need you do take this survey.

It’s 10 questions and it’s likely going to stir up some controversy. That’s not the goal. The goal is to look into a person’s personal beliefs and their reasons for choosing one or the other parenting choice.

I want to get to the heart of the matter. So, what I need from you is honest, no holding back, truthful opinions about your choices and the choices of others. The survey is completely anonymous. I also don’t want the answers here on the blog. It’s not really the purpose.

This is a data gathering survey to gauge opinions. When you answer the question for comments, please elaborate, tell me what you researched, what your personal experiences are and what has formed your opinion on the “other choice”. Be as detailed and honest as you want to be! I’m more interested in the reasoning and research you have done than the choice itself, so please DON’T SKIP THE COMMENT SECTION of each question!

Please help me out with this. I am trying to shed light on both sides of each mini war to see if we can conquer the battle by putting a face and a voice to each parenting choice we make.

Again, you can take the survey here. Please share with all your family and friends. The more answers the better! Help me get this survey to as many people as possible, so I can start my “Mommy Wars Project”

Hello … Are We Sure This Is My Life?

So, its that time again. I just can’t even believe our kid is coming up on the 2 year old mark. I mean, seriously. I carried her inside of me for nearly a year and now we have had her in our lives for damn near 2 years.

Does this feeling of disbelief ever go away? I mean, I’m still astonished that we have a kid. I’m still astonished every day that I wake up and go into her room and find her there. I still sometimes feel like I’m living in a dream world, waiting to wake up from this life where we have been together for almost 11 years (through mental illness, a plethora of moves, and a baby carriage) and we have a child against all odds.

It never would have been possible for us to get pregnant the way most lesbian couples get pregnant. We aren’t the ‘saving’ kind and frankly, we are very not thrifty with our money. We live paycheck to paycheck – even now, so going through any sort of fertility treatments, like another great blog buddy posted her medication costs and I damn near fell out of my chair. Buying up sperm at a sperm bank would never have been an option for us.

The first time we looked into the sperm banks online, we were seriously considering it, but when it came time to really step into the financials of it all, we knew, it wasn’t in the cards, realistically. In fact, I think Kim and I were pretty resolved to never having kids of our own.

I think that’s why my astonishment still lingers. I know that it’s tough for the gals and couples out there who are struggling with their baby making journey and my heart breaks for all of them with each new BFN. But, I am so very thankful for the turn of events that happened so unexpectedly in our life.

No, we didn’t conceive in the conventional lesbian way, not even the ‘turkey baster’ way. I’m not ashamed to say that we went the cheap and some would call it “easy” way. I don’t think we called it easy at the time. Emotionally and physically the whole thing was draining. However, lucky for us, it didn’t take long and we had a baby in the belly. Thank goodness, I don’t think we would have been strong enough to make it more than 1 cycle.

I really can’t thank our donor enough for all that he helped us accomplish with the goodness and selflessness of his heart. Literally, I’m going to be forever grateful to that man for giving us a piece of himself and asking NOTHING in return.

My point is, holy shit, we have a two year old and I still look at her in complete and utter awe. I don’t know if that is a normal feeling for all moms, I’m not sure if this is something extraordinary I am feeling. But, I keep waiting for the feeling to wear off. I keep expecting that one day I will come to grips with the fact that I have a tiny mini-me running around our apartment.

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So, speaking of our nearly 2 year old, it’s that time again. It’s time to start planning a birthday party. I am what I guess you would call a “Pinterest Mom”. I never really noticed that this was a negative term until I read about it in another blog buddy‘s post a few days ago. In the end, I figure anyone who thinks it’s negative is simply jealous.

I also read an article on Babble about giving up the extravagant parties and have low-key affairs for our kids. Well, that’s all well and good, but not going to happen. The first birthday party, the Dr. Seuss Extravaganza, was mostly for me, people asked why we would want to have such a large party for  one year old who wouldn’t remember it.

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You have a point. However,  I’m not ashamed to admit that the party was purely for me. I wanted to celebrate her first year with a bang. I wanted to make sure everyone could celebrate her with us. I wanted to always remember the first birthday of our only baby girl. Our miracle baby, whom we didn’t think would have ever existed. So, yes. We had a giant party in her honor and no, she won’t remember.

So, why then, would I want to put myself through another giant party for my two year old? I have two sets of family members on my side of the family, Kim has two sets of family members on her side. If we didn’t have the money or the willpower to save for sperm, we sure as hell don’t have the money to save for four different birthday parties.

Instead, we suck it up and make one very large event. It’s just easier! It will likely be the way of her life for many years to come until celebrating with her aunts and uncles and grandparents become a thing of the past and we transition into the slumber parties and spa days for her birthdays.

I’m going to milk those days as long as I can. So, we have decided on a cars theme this year. Punky is all about her cars right now. She’s loving the cars and the trucks and drives them all over our apartment for hours.

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So, it only makes sense that we would make it a big to-do. So, I am sending out ‘car’ invitations with ‘pit crew’ VIP passes. My goal is to make a few wearable cardboard box cars for kids to race around in out of diaper boxes, if I can muster the creativity and the talent!

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I can’t decide between a dress similar to this one:

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Or this one:

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But I’m leaning towards the tutu just because I am likely going to be making her dress myself and my sewing skills may not be sophisticated enough for the first one, even though I think it may be more Punky’s style. We will have to see!

Anyway, the great birthday bash preparation has begun for the All Out Cars Event for Punky’s second birthday. Do I think it’s over ambitious? Yes. Do I think it’s ridiculous? Yes. Ask me if I care? I don’t! My kid will always have the best of everything. She will have all the things I didn’t have (that’s a post for another day) and she will grow up knowing she was loved and cherished by her mothers no matter what may come.

Period. Whether she’s down for it all the time or not. We will likely smother her in our love.

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When she looks back on her childhood, I want her to smile. I want her to remember the good things she did, the fun she had and the joy she had being a CHILD. I don’t want her to grow up too fast, I don’t want her to be surrounded by things she doesn’t need to know yet. I will keep her small and happy for as long as possible. If I have my way, she will never have a sad day in her childhood, ever. At least not on my watch.

So will her party be excessive? Absolutely. Does it mean I’m probably spoiling her? Yea, most likely… She’s still the nicest, sweetest, kindest little toddler on the block. I think a little happiness in a kid’s life is A-Ok and I’m more than willing to provide it for her!

If you wanna follow all my preparations, you can check it out on Pinterest, where I pin pretty much obsessively. Check out my board.